I forgot, I really forgot bout this. "Do not prioritize your feelings!" Should it is my principle from the beginning. But, it has been destroyed. And I feel, I've gained as a result.
I do not regret what I've got so far, But I'm just afraid that someone else will regret it. Now I must try desperately to keep his feeling. I also do not want to feel forced. I do not feel forced at all. But, in my position now, I have to keep a lot of heart. More than one person around my mind. And I have to keep their own feelings. It also caused my tantrums.
I should have remembered my principles from the beginning, since I received something given to me, then I should already know the risks. But what? I too put something called "FEELINGS". Then if I undergo this further, I am confident that I can handle this. I could slowly develop my sense of this to him without having to hurt people around me. But for now, I still need time to eliminate all about Mr. A from my brain. He is my topic from the beginning I open this blog. Hm, "open your eyes, your real life is it!". Hah,, bismillahirrahmanirrahim, I can surely undergo this.
At least I should be able to forget for a moment about this. I will try to focus with my future to study. This problem, I will find a way out. or maybe, all I get done, before I was successful. I "have not" know. but, surely I would know it.
